I just returned from Myrtle Beach South Carolina, where my sister's and I held a ceremony in honor of our mother Linda Freeman ♡ r.i.p
Krissy just sent me photos she took at our ceremony for mom... It was beautiful and the weather acted accordingly with confirmation as I called to the winds of the South and the great serpent to assist in shedding the past, West and Mother sister Jaguar to eat away energetic debris that have resulted from unhealthy relationships, as well as assisting in opening the rainbow bridge, North and the hummingbird to accompany us and remind us we can complete the most impossible journeys and still drink from the nectar of life, East and the eagle condors for a new perspective to rise above the storms of life and to see the interconnectedness of all things, and asked Mother Earth to take from us any energy that has weighed us down, to transmute and fertilize the Earth, to keep our inner child safe within her womb and the Great Spirit to protect us, assist us, and allow us to shed the pain of our past, as these words came out of me lightning began to strike, thunder rolling in, I asked to clear our emotional bodies and light rain began to fall all around us and the wind was whipping stronger with each word.. We sat and talked to Mom within our minds, the tide was out and the waves were crashing high, though I felt no fear as I walked down into the water.. it was warmer than I expected and a few little sparkles of light flashed as I made my way in, I continued until the waves were at my thighs, and as soon as I put my hands into the ash I was overwhelmed immediately, tears streaming down my face as she left my fingers into the wind, and into the water. As the ashes were leaving my fingers they danced above the water, it was actually incredible and beautiful to see, and I can tap into the feeling in my chest and soul as I replay the motions of those moments. After the ashes were spread I just stood there for a few moments, catching my breath, and trying to release the lump in my throat, I ran my hands in the warm water allowing the waves to wash over and around my hands and legs, I turned back and composed myself before returning to my sister's, and felt the weight of my dress pulling me back as I left the water.. After a few moments I felt guided to fill the bag and urn with some of the ocean water, and so I now have that water to assist me in releasing sadness and grief, as well as keeping a piece of moms final resting place with me for the rest of my time here. As we were packing up Krissy saw one tiny white bird over the waves, neither me or Victoria saw it when looked and krissy said it's as if it just disappeared into the waves. I believe it was mom showing her she is still here, in the wind, in the water, in the birds, butterflies, trees, and of course inside of us. Our entire trip there and back we had multiple hawks and amazing powerful birds flying above the highway, leading us to new perspectives. In losing my Mom's physical presence on Earth I found out a lot about myself, the people in my life, seeing the pieces where I was allowing others and myself to take advantage of or hurt me, and the pieces that have supported and uplifted me.. I feel like I have now stepped into that part of life where you just let go. No more holding onto things that don't serve my growth and soul. When you stop caring what others do or don't do, and you realize how insignificant most of the "problems" you have are.. Spend time with those who make you smile not looking in the mirror of doubt. Build each other up, stop taking everything personally, and release the idea that you have all the answers, or are in any way better than another. Just be who you are, and show up for you! When you do the universe supports you, and you can see clearly from the other side of the illusions you were wrapped within. Support and love others, don't listen to the opinions of others, listen to the feeling in your chest and belly. I now know that people only see through a limited view into you, and they may think they know what's best for you, but only you truly do.. Others may not always understand or agree with you, and they don't have to, they aren't the ones that have to look in that mirror every day, you are. And finally as mom would say who gives a shit what anyone else thinks, if your happy then just fucking do it. ♡ I hope to manifest many trips back to visit those waves again. I would love to spend some more time alone, connecting to the energy there. I would also love to take my time traveling there and home, stopping to ground and just walking in the woods and along the shores of the coast ♡
It was beautiful and the weather acted accordingly with confirmation as I called to the winds of the South and the great serpent to assist in shedding the past, West and Mother sister Jaguar to eat away energetic debris that have resulted from unhealthy relationships, as well as assisting in opening the rainbow bridge, North and the hummingbird to accompany us and remind us we can complete the most impossible journeys and still drink from the nectar of life, East and the eagle condors for a new perspective to rise above the storms of life and to see the interconnectedness of all things, and asked Mother Earth to take from us any energy that has weighed us down, to transmute and fertilize the Earth, to keep our inner child safe within her womb and the Great Spirit to protect us, assist us, and allow us to shed the pain of our past, as these words came out of me lightning began to strike, thunder rolling in, I asked to clear our emotional bodies and light rain began to fall all around us and the wind was whipping stronger with each word.. We sat and talked to Mom within our minds, the tide was out and the waves were crashing high, though I felt no fear as I walked down into the water.. it was warmer than I expected and a few little sparkles of light flashed as I made my way in, I continued until the waves were at my thighs, and as soon as I put my hands into the ash I was overwhelmed immediately, tears streaming down my face as she left my fingers into the wind, and into the water. As the ashes were leaving my fingers they danced above the water, it was actually incredible and beautiful to see, and I can tap into the feeling in my chest and soul as I replay the motions of those moments. After the ashes were spread I just stood there for a few moments, catching my breath, and trying to release the lump in my throat, I ran my hands in the warm water allowing the waves to wash over and around my hands and legs, I turned back and composed myself before returning to my sister's, and felt the weight of my dress pulling me back as I left the water.. After a few moments I felt guided to fill the bag and urn with some of the ocean water, and so I now have that water to assist me in releasing sadness and grief, as well as keeping a piece of moms final resting place with me for the rest of my time here. As we were packing up Krissy saw one tiny white bird over the waves, neither me or Victoria saw it when looked and krissy said it's as if it just disappeared into the waves. I believe it was mom showing her she is still here, in the wind, in the water, in the birds, butterflies, trees, and of course inside of us. Our entire trip there and back we had multiple hawks and amazing powerful birds flying above the highway, leading us to new perspectives. In losing my Mom's physical presence on Earth I found out a lot about myself, the people in my life, seeing the pieces where I was allowing others and myself to take advantage of or hurt me, and the pieces that have supported and uplifted me.. I feel like I have now stepped into that part of life where you just let go. No more holding onto things that don't serve my growth and soul. When you stop caring what others do or don't do, and you realize how insignificant most of the "problems" you have are.. Spend time with those who make you smile not looking in the mirror of doubt. Build each other up, stop taking everything personally, and release the idea that you have all the answers, or are in any way better than another. Just be who you are, and show up for you! When you do the universe supports you, and you can see clearly from the other side of the illusions you were wrapped within. Support and love others, don't listen to the opinions of others, listen to the feeling in your chest and belly. I now know that people only see through a limited view into you, and they may think they know what's best for you, but only you truly do.. Others may not always understand or agree with you, and they don't have to, they aren't the ones that have to look in that mirror every day, you are. And finally as mom would say who gives a shit what anyone else thinks, if your happy then just fucking do it. ♡ I hope to manifest many trips back to visit those waves again. I would love to spend some more time alone, connecting to the energy there. I would also love to take my time traveling there and home, stopping to ground and just walking in the woods and along the shores of the coast ♡